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cos i kinda got zzz of blogger so yay byeeeeee!

fast day twenty seven

Today was a bad day cos

Firstly; I WOKE UP LATE MEANING I OVERSLEPT MEANS I REACHED SCHOOL LATE DESPITE, i repeat, DESPITE TAKING A CAB TO SCHOOOOL.

Secondly; I THOUGHT TODAY WAS THE CHINESE PAPER BUT NOOOOOO IT WASNT IT WAS MATH AND I DIDNT REALLY STUDY WHICH MEANS I WASNT PREPARED WHICH MEANS OHNO.

Thirdly; GUESS WHAT YOU ALL THOUGHT I WOULD SCREW THE MATH PAPER RIGHT WELLLLL NOOOOOOO I SCREWED MY ENGLISH PAPER UP HGGHFSGD I DIDNT GET TO FINISH AND MATHS WAS SO HANDY DANDY FINE! OMG HOW IRONIC.

so yeah. basically today wasnt a that awesome day but lit perked me up! Cos everything i remembered from lessons came out and everything i didnt remember didnt come out weeee~

Tonight Ajisen for dinner..? Please say yess :0 and i wanna get those yummy earphones ziyan has bwahahahha.

HAHAHAHA i cant wait for CT to be over weeeeee

Thursday dinner at 313 shopppping ^^

Friday National day half day wakakaka

Saturday Worship church dinner with family

Sunday Worship

Monday Family day

Tuesday Univirsal studios?

kayyyyyys byeeeeee!

A brief summary on what i did today weeeeee~

Maths a lil, chem i read the new chps, memorised 5 big ions, revised everything else i ald memorised. Bio, memorised half of human digestion ^^ English read through handouts. And also lit handouts. and chinese! kinda memorised the words ald kayyyys.

Im kinda worried for this time round exam. like not prepared enough heeeeee

I know i should be studying right about....now but. before i end my seeeemingly long break DAMN I REALLY WANNA PLAY NERF RIGHT NOW RIGHT NOW RIGHT NOW :/

fast day twenty six

Hey guyyyyyyys

after an awesome day ytd with 'studying' at macs, church, cell, crazy macs dinner and watching soccerer's apprentice, today is gonna be a chionggggggggg day for me rawr!

Wish me luck peeeeeps im gonna hegdyffehf myself up ^^

Thank you lord for yesterday, even if it aint gonna happen again until two weeks or so, i thank you for blessing me with such awesomeness yesterday! I really had fun and i treasured every moment of it ;D

Kayyyyyys, byeeeee!

I was browsing through my old photos and i realise that i surprisingly, i really miss those things that i lost and i really want them back, but i know i cant. Its like, i never knew how precious how wodnerful, how awesome those things were until there're really gone. Now even though i might regret, one must always move on in life. Like somebody once told me, " There is a reason why some people/things just dont make it into your future."

Sometimes i wonder what happened to the old me. the old me that never judged. the old me that treated everybody with respect. the old me that had so much passion not to do the bad things cos i wanted to follow in christ's footsteps. the old humble me. the old me that never really bothered about what other people might have thought. even though everyone might say i have never ever changed, i know deeep down i have. more mature, more hardworking, more self concious, I want to go back to once upon a time. It felt so much more better than. now something just feels empty.

2323232323232323232323 dont ask me why im chanting it. As i said, brings back memories xxx.

fast day twenty four

Bwahahaha i never knew that 0.0 so coooool! well kinda, in a twisted way bwahahaha!

Hey peeeeeps ^^ TODAY WAS COLDDDD and it still is wooooo~ and that gave me a ultra esjfshfsj fabulous awesome reason to wear my hugeeeee adidas jacket while studying! Which means extra comfort without the stupid warmth yayyyy^^

Anyway, today mr gad came to teacch us for chem instead of ms rashida. No points for guessing how happy and glad i am bwahahaha! And i studied! Bwahahaha like what? Let me collect my thoughts here...it worked for me in Sa1 so i guess it SHOULD work now ehhhhh. Anyway. i actually did do that, buut i earased it all wakakaka! cos i suddenly felt too lazy to type so many typos 0.0

LOL sdbfhsfj today i came to sch late! Last night after studying i just dozed off zzz without even brushing my teeth offing my light SETTING MY ALARM! And thus i overslept and boooooooms. But detention was kinda fun ^^

TOMORROWS SATURDAY SATURDAY SATURDAY SAY YAYYYYY IM SOOO SO SO SO SO HAPPY WOOOOOO~

kayys, byeeeeee!

fast day twenty two

well i dont feel like blogging and i saw this on justinas blog and wj himself told me about it idk when, but its pretty cool never knew wj had this secret talent LOL!

You are like a balloon,

once i let you go,

i might never get you back.

So im gonna tie you to my heart,

so that i will never lose you.

-Weijie Birdman

Fast day twenty one

Hey peeeeeps ^^

So today i didnt go to school but hey! I'd rather go to school okay i had my piano exam today and hopefully i shall pass. Please lord! Help me pass :0

Anyway. Today i finally got my nerf guns bullets! i lost all of mine at cell bonding -.- i brought a fully loaded one to church and brought home an empty one so pathetic! but yeahhh i reloaded them today so. I'm happy ^^

Oh yeah bought the yummy-est marks and spencers cookies with that superbly awesome jam middle and cream fillings! HAHAH yeah the same ones denice brought to school for a period of time, the same ones na bought sam for his xmas pressie ^^ HAHAHAHAHA YES THOSE VERY SAME AWESOME ONES YEAHHH IM SO IN BLISS RIGHTY NOW WHOOOOOTS~

Okay went to orchard with denice and huili, shoppppped ^^ F21 collection now very nice so boho i likey ^^

hahahaha kayyys tmr there's school and choir and ct's next weeeek time to stress it all out baby.

byeeeeee!

BITCH

DAISYYYYYYYYY! you bitch im really bitchily bored now i bitching don't know what to bitchily bitch about and i need something to bitch but there's no bitch for me to bitch and BITCH! i feel like bitching my pillow you know what ? i bitching dont know what im bitching about what a bitch i am bitch. now even the bitchy word of bitch is starting to look bitchily wierd oh my bitchy bitch. i should bitchily stop bitching kayys bye bitches.

Fast day twenty

Okay i saw this on belle's blog and i just had to post i up! COLOURS ^^ and loveeeee - exactly what i'm feeling today. Wakakakaka!

Okay anyway, OMG HALFWAY THROUGH FASTING ALD i cant believe i survived so far. Thank god, amen man. Plus, i realise, the whole masterpiece has finally been painted finished and i think its over. really over. Thank god. now its just minor stuff that can be easily solved and. whooooots~ i'm happy ^^

Okay, let's start from ytd...?

Well, yesterday was fun! HAHAHA i didnt expect it to be but it turned out awesomely awesome hahahaha! First, worship. Awesome key ^^ okay but only for me D: which is damn sian. Not my fault that my range is low Low LOWWWWW! i cant help it -.- hahaha thought i screwed the solo cos i slipped up on one line...Like idk lyrics den the screen nvr show than i stun there omg whats going on. LOL lucky the damn pro dude James said it was like okay and it sounded good still phewwws :)

After that, bgr talk. And i realise. I do want to stay all the way. I'm ready to tackle anything, and i'll be here always. It wasnt as awkward as i thought it would be...cos i learn that im not really afraid to hide anything anymore woooo so. yay me? hahaha.

Cell bonding next! It was FUN FUN FUN FUN FUN. more than i expected it to be. We had a nerf war whoooots super crazy. and iphones/ipod touches make ppl anti social...we spent like almost the whole night playing taptap and talking. lalalala but i still enjoyed the bonding session we had...I LOVE CFC COMARDES FOR CHRIST YAY! oh and i slept at 8am -.- hahha!

Today, breakfasted at kfc yay and ppiano -.- but heyhey! I PASSED MY MOCK EXAM lord i pray tmr exam will go smoothly.

Haha kayyys, byeeeee!

Fast day eighteen.

Today was , a sucky day. Kinda.

Lets start from th top shall we. Racial harmony celebrations were so boring, not just boring, dead boring, i rather have lessons. YES LESSONS. omg right, cant believe im actually saying it omgomg. BWAHAHA. To top it off, there's freaking choir, CHOIR! And plus mr chen walked out wth like dshcsfygbsdh idk man. Like we already put in effort its not like we have all th time in the world or anything. Plus it sounded okay yesterday how would i know why we screwed up today. Its a...err...human thing! And you're not HUMAN your a stupid super eq low MONSTER, yes a monster. cant wait to graduate no moreeeee stress from you i never wanted to be student conductor in th first place okay.

Today i learnt im not allowed in kovan melody, MY OWN FREAKING HOUSE, on weekends. WTH. yeah, like wth.

At least haanging out with queky, na , and wj was pretty awesome ; i love them man they're way awesomeee.

But something just HAD TO GO AND SPOIL IT i received some jadgfsdhkfgsudh news today and i said stuff i should not have said to queky wakaka lucky he understand. Please god, dont make it come true please im begging you.

Went to kovan, prac piano, realise my first song is SCREWED. shit man. and theres, AURAL, which i dont understand a shit about. Im strugglling, ya know what. Im gonna go there and whack whack whack lorh siannnnnn D: hate this. Stress!

See, today's such a sucky day. Tmr theres worship, church and cell bonding. Hopefully it'll be a better day.

Okay on a side note. I'm loooking forward to tmr's bgr talk LOL i wanna see ppl's reaction HAHAHA sadist. and not really to cell bonding. so wierdddd! But yeah ^^ Plus, these days i've been dreaming of me getting my mother's illness 0.0 premonition?

HAHA kayys byeeeeeee!

PIKACHU! HAHAHAA reminds me of you ^^

I LOVE YOU....gioh lol so dumb.

and you can make me th happiest person alive, well almost bwahahaha!

Fast day fifteen.

Hey peeeps

Today was kinda okay...I GOT BACK MY IPOD ! YAYAY i didnt realise how much it actually meant to me until its actually gone haahaha! illy ipod dont ever ever leave me again kayyys...?

Today school ended early ^^ yay dont need to see that eng cher's face again, who btw was trying to act strict but failed really badly DAHHHHHHH! awwws nice try though, but we still could see through that facade and see the real photoshop geek in you D: HAHAHAHA!

went to kovan and play piano for awhile, den went to collect back my ipod and eat yummmy upsized spicy mcnugget meal yummmms.

THE SPICY MCNUGGETS ARE HEAVENLY OKAY A MUST TRY :D:D its like normal mcnuggets but like with th curry sauce inside, so every bite its like...yummmms! So, if you're this random wierdo who somehow dont like curry sauce(idk how that's even possible in th first place)..this aint for you bwahahaha! awws. Oh yeah, ate my cheeeeese muffin ! Epitome of all awesome muffins i swear. If im going heartland mall tmr, im gonna buy it again omg no wonder it was sold out in hougang mall D: HAHAHA!

yupps after everything, went back to kovan again, den roamed and toured heartland mall... trying to find acard that fit th budget LOL! which was btw, 3 bucks, or to be precise, $2.99, cos of a certain stingy somebody...YES YOU YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE some more try to make me guess ur stupid password lol so obvious why i didnt i see omg ! -.- someone smack my head lol!

Hahaha kayys had fun anyway. righty byeeeeee!

I suddenly feel oh so tired of everything i want to leave everything behind and travel the world without a care.

I want to sleeeeep and never wake up until i reach 17.

I want to stay behind my comfort zone and never find the need to step out of it.

I want people to help me with my responsibilities and tell me everything's gonna be okay.

HAH i feel like such a baby wahhwahhh !

Fast day fourteen

Omg piano exam's like next monday and guess what. I aint prepared. And im gonna chiongggggg this weeek gonna give it my best shot aural pieces scales sightreading RAWR! im so damn freaking afraid that i'd fail..i dont wanna fail! I dont wanna fail! I DONT WANNA FAIL! i dont wanna retake it all over again. shit man.

Tomorrow's agenda :

School, Chiong to kovan, piano, lunch, back to kovan, piano and slack, homeee,aural and scales.

idk man. im so desperate right now god please make a miracle happen PLEASEEEE :O with a cherry on top...

Okay anyway.Today was boring. Like always. Monday blues lah.

chemistry omg with that ms rashida and i really understand like no shit about that stuppid chapter i want mdm parimala to teach us instead.....D: chinese..okay lah but its chinese what more can i say. Bio but no bio lab so in classroom for th first time sian! Maths and CE. ugh.

Okay but than today's strait times have the free cathay tcikets thingy i could have went and watch but priorities : PIANO! RAWRRRRRR! must chiongggggggggg!

BWAHAHAHA okayyys. I think i gotta catch up with my fasting book of mine, basically everything in it its so cheeem that im not very faithful in following it hehehehe :X

Kayyys, byeeeeee!

Hey i feel like changing my blog to tumblr after my 40 days thingy cos tumblr is da bomb.

tumblr xxx shucks the fast is getting to me.

Fast day thirteen

Omg i love her hair ttm ;/ is it possible for asians to dye their this colour and actually look normal? 0.0 i wannnnt !

Hey dudes ^^

Know that i havent been really posting since weds im just too lazy to actually go blog hehe.

But im back now so....Hi !

Okay i feel so accomplished i just packed my room up ^^ YAY ME :) all of you people should be proud of me bwahahhaa.

Okay so ytd had church bwahaha where we learnt next week is like what? Bgr talk -.- and CELL BONDING!

Which tbh im not really looking forward to. Idk lah. Its just wierd, usually i will be hyped and all but. Hmms RAWR! ah heck care im just going whooooots~

so yeah. Dinnered, but seperated again, with me and queky going to the makeshift market to eat lalalala. Slacked somewhere random, than went homeeeeee. Where i had this most magical night ^^ BWAHAHAHAHA!

ohman, i really miss Tumblr-ing. Its like. Idk i feel so empty without it! Shucks but i cant break fast, its all for god. And He should be placed right on top over all these materialistic things. I mean, fasting has really taught me like important values, like being appreciative for the little things in life, and actually thanking god for them. Once you felt th hunger, you realise how blessed you are by god. Its so amazing. I cant believe how i took things for granted in the past, even neglecting god all the way. I want to grow closer to god. I wanna be like Jesus Christ. Take me and mould me lord, im your clay ^^

Fast day ten.

Hey cooool ^^ DOUBLE DIGIT FINALLY, 10 down, 30 more to go whooooots~ Go celia you can do this !

bwahahaha oh btw denice. david villa's so hot see even your ass wanna kiss him thats why ure like asking him to kiss your ass awwws. HAHAHA u cant hide anything from a lit student bwahahahaha!
Today was fun! Chem and bio practical! Lit and eng and photo taking and stupid assembly programme on why its good to be kaypoh -.-

besides that, nothing much to blog about? Today was...kinda boring D: awwwwws.

hahaha okayy, byeeeeee!

Fast day nine.

Remind me NEVER EVER to just eat only youghurt for breakfast. I felt so faint for the rest of th day during my fast 0.0 tmr breakfast yoghurt bananas plums YUM!

today was...okay? HAHAHA bio was really interesting i felt. for some reason. The stoma of the stomata! The villus of the villus! HAHAHA :p i find joy in retarded things like that bwahahaha.

Maths, i learnt, that they completed one part of trigo ytd. So today i caught hardly any balls in whatever mr chng was asking us to do and i tried my hardest to self study...which i sucessfully did ^^ YAY ME bwahahaha.

Choir after school, learnt two new songs which were hardly easy. D: ohno.

Dinner-ed at Kovan macs with wj, matt, na. had fun talking crap whoooots~

but. i see the picture painting really big. Like piecing tgt everything i know, which is more than anybody knows...( IM THE BRAIN YESSIR I AM ), im scared. for the future. its ald so complicated, what will th future bring? omg idk. I wished i didnt know. And i wish i could still remain naive and satisfied LOL. but yeah i want things to be back like the way they were before.

Hahaha kayyys, byeeeeee!

fast day eight.

Omg couple boxers from flashlightbatteries ^^ Mad cute wakakaka!

Yes, thats a durex packet in the 'pocket' of the male's boxers HAHAH so funny LOL!

Saw this when i was bloghopping arnd hahaha but costs a maddening 30 bucks D:

So today was boringggggg.

yes super, but anyway. im almost reaching a double digit number for my fasting ! YAY ^^

So, this is what happened...

SPAIN WON! OMG SPAIN WON the goalie( whos also the captain whos name start with C but idk how to pronnouce) was so cute he cried omg. ^^ LOL! YAY SPAINNNN WON! :D bwahahahaha ! i was really jumping when they scored, like omg lah.

I switched off the tv at lik3 5.30 am and idk how dumb i was to go to sleep. IT WASNT INTENTIONAL. really. i just dozed off just like that....only to wake up at 6.45 and realise i was late, Late, LATE! so chiongggggg ah! Wanted to take cab, BUT NO CAB IN SIGHT WTH LIKE REALLY NO CAB!

aand thus. i ponnned cos i didnt wanna be late! D: Plus my dad gave the a-ok so...

But i feel kinda bad cos im gonna miss lessons and exam's coming!

So. Me, the awesome celia, am gonna study today at home so guai right ^^ be proud of me people!

Im gonna do bio , chem, maths! XD bwahahaha

I'm so happy spain won. ^^ This weekend has been awesome dude.

kayys, byeeeeee!

Go spainnnnnn! wakakaka eye candy david villa ^^

Ninja !

Drama night - PHOTOS! Thanks Deniceeeeee ^^ wakakaka.

I'm like watching the world cup final now and OMG i watch holland until super pekcek they like playing super dee duper dirty! GOOO SPAIN!

AND YOU KNOW WHAT SOME HOLLAND PLAYER WENT TO KICK DAVID VILLA OMG GO DIEEEEE HOLLAND YOU BLACKLISTED ALD JUST LIKE GERMANY!

But Germany's like 7465768 times better than you RAWR!

Nevermind, gooooo spain!

But my heart's still with Maradonna ftw ^^

kayyyys, BYEEEE!

Omg i likey this shirt so so so much but guess what.

SOLD OUT AND BACKORDERS NO LONGER ACCEPTED!

so sad right ? *sniffs*

Fast day seven.

Hey peeps ^^

Today was really awesome bwahahaha ;D not minding the fact that i woke up like at 6 to prepare to go to church -.- but hey! Its all for god so...no regrets no complains im glad to do it i loveee worship ! Bwahahaha.

Plus, repertoire was like super niceeeee (eh 6 songs leh) and we sung in L4 like brings back so many gooood memories.

Wakakaka, today i realise god really tests you when you're fasting man! Its like, all the other sundays when we have worship duty and we go down to th melting pot for breakfast usually the chicken wings are SOLD OUT!

But today, omg lah, just so when im fasting there were so many chicken wings left over! NOT COOL DUDE. nvrmind celia, control, selfcontrol!

After church went to slack with wj and queky. Omg they're so super awesome lah like super fun hahaha enjoyed myself like mad. ^^

And everything eneded off so awesomely too~ Today was so so so awesome until cannot describe the awesomeness ald, render me super speechless hahaha!

Tonight- HOLLAND vs SPAIN!

And i support both sides ohno. But, GOOOO DAVID VILLA!

kayys, byeeeee!

Fast day six.

Today i made a concoction of milk using hl and magnolia and yumms it tastes gooooooooooooood ;D MOOOO!

bwahahaha watched the drama show , NINJA! DAMN it was so awesome ^^ good show guys. The first scene was like a principal scene and i was flooded with memories from musical like three years ago, ( OMG THREE YEARS can you believe its that long ald? woah.) and booms hit right smack at the spot with nostalgia. Anyway. Keith loooked good as an old grouchy man who had a fetish of depicting sex scenes with toys LOL. and he could still wink at me like with all his white hair and "wrinkles" some more -.- HAHAHAHA! And Terrence looked good too bwahahaha and Sharmini was so chioooooo ^^ AHHH Gordon also so chio i kept thinking he was some sort of girl lah after the whole show bwahaha.

Today's photos were awesome ^^ and i'll post them up sooooon bloooops~

Kayys, Byeeeeeee!

Fast day five.

Alrighty yijin, i only uploaded those i could upload so. hahaha enjoy!

Today's long bus ride to piano lesson was filled with deep thoughts of you and inseecurities that disturb me to no end. I know, that every girl will feel insecure but. Idk, i wished i was different. I wished i was stronger. I wished i had more faith. cos in the end, these insecurities are always there, but always for nothing.

Fast day four.

Ah im sorry yijin T.T you know those photos? i realise when i look at them and my computer cant read the format for most of them idk why! T.T go denice's blog and take? Meanwhile, i'll try to reformat them cos my blog looks dead empty without photos T.T

bwahahaha. anyway.

Today was, okay i guess? really boring. Almost overslept due to the super exciting match last night XD oh yeah SPAIN WON GERMANY'S ASS GOT THRASH HAHAHHAAHA! super happy. now my top three favourite teams are Argentina Spain Holland. Gogogogogo! okay whatever finals are between two of my fav so yayyyyy!

Next week im up first to do english presentation. Im scared ald. yes thats how bad my stage fright is 0.0

Today was kinda wierd...i met jael out sjc coincidentally and at the traffic light i met Li Kiong! Talk about really coincidental 0.0 hahahaha two people in a row woahhhhh. i didnt know likiong studied in sjc -.- hahaha so surprising!

yeah thats all i guess. Fasting aint fun but i think im doing really well! Yay me :D

kayyys, BYEEEEE!

Sorry Yijin, im just so tired now im way too lazy to post those concert pics T.T I'll post them tmr, i promise ><
Today school was...boring. AHHHHH i slept at 10.30 last night and im still sleepy today wth? HAHAHAHA useless. today im gonna go sleep really early and wake up at 2.30 am to watch worldcup! Spain vs Germany ^^ GOOOO SPAIN GO THRASH THOSE GERMAN ASSES BWAHAHAHAHA :D
anyway. today was saved by chem and bio experiments. I'm scared for SPA. I dont wanna do it, i dont wanna think of experimental errors 0.0 hahahahhahaaha i dont have the science brain D: awwwws.
After school went to fareast, in the end for nothing T.T hey guyyyys NEVER EVER EAT CHIPPY that cheesy curry chicken. Its disgusting, like you taste all the deep friedness and the oil and no taste and thank god for the cheeese it saved me but it still gave me a headache ugh.
Righty so now i super damn sleeeeepy to do my maths doublle ugh.
kayys BYEEEEE!

Fast day two .

Meet Walter, the rabbit that greeted us when we visited the children's art garden yesterday at SAM. So cute right omg.

HAHAHA today was wierd :/ in a way.

Slept during maths and chinese, and cheryl told me that my eye bags were like really bad 0.0 oh no maybe i should start sleeping early? HAHAHAHA.

English was the most fun lah, like always ^^ EXCEPT CHUA JIE CHERN IS A FREAK YOU KNOW WHAT HE FREAKINGLY DID? HE BIT ME ME. THREE TIMES. yes, he really bit me. like bit, bit. There were the teeth marks! And its really sick, its not the pain, its like u feel the saliva wetting your skin ewwws. And three times some more? I know you're a edward cullen wanna be or smth, but honestly, even if im like anti-edwardcullen, he's way above your league dude. i'm so sorry. HAHAHAHAA.

After school was FUN! i mean i enjoyed myself. I hope you did too bwahahahaha!

Alrighty, kayys BYEEEEEE!

Fast day one.

Today's fast was survivable. Well almost. Lunch was so hard to fast i tell you i almost gave up but i didnt! Amen, but im doubting myself for 39 days more? woah sounds impossible. But nothing is impossible to glorify god's name amen!

Today went out with Caris and Jan yayyyy ^^

we went for a sushi making lunch -.- HOW IRONIC to go for such a event on the first day of my fast right all you sadists out there you may now proceed to laugh at my demise. Anyway, we left soon after and JAN"S SOLE TORE OUT AND HER SHOE CAME FALLING APART OMG LAH idk how it happened it just broke into pieces the shoe ;0

Went to bugis to watch the CTI( carpenter tools international) guys perform, the lead vocalist was AWESOME omg lah i think she was kinda screaming but what matters is that she hit that freaking highest note in don't stop believing OMG. like shit omg. hahahaah! After that went to SAM to see that children's art garden thingy which was freaking cool. Actually we needed to pay 5 bucks to enter but we didnt know and in th end we just went in without paying -.- EHH we only reaalised after we left the place okay. NOT OUR FAULT.

shopped at bugis junction and street, trying desperately to find jan a replacement shoe bwahahaha. All while was i was dying with hunger HAHAHAHA! in the end im the only one who didnt buy anything oh well. can save money ^^ Optimistic me like always keke.

Oh yeah, im done with my english ppt, and im good and ready to go. I think? okay maybe not really ohno.

kayyys, byeeeee!

Why must people act so superficial? Why must feelings seem so superficial? And all these just adds up to insecurities that have no need to be there, insecurities that i'd be better off without.

Yes at that moment i truly thought u were anhjfdhfsj. It doesnt matter whatever happens in the past does it? The important thing is that you are the one that matters most now. And why do you seem so willing to let go of everything just beacuse of something you can never change? Is it worth it? does everything mean so little to you? Did i mean so little to you? Welll shit, cos if i did, i think i'd be much better off without you.

well whatever. I wouldnt care if you kissed 82342374682 girls in your past. really. Thats how much i feel for you.

Now you placed so many doubts in me. What would happen if i really did kiss other guys in my past.

UGH. celia chill ure stronger than this, you know you are.

hell yes i am.

Tomorrow im gonna start my 40 day fast : Tumblr, fb, Lunch ^^ so. Wish me luck. Hopefully i can draw closer to the lord also whooooots~ Anyway, i'll still be blogging so, YAY ME! i can do this, cos im awesome :D Anyway. Today i watched A-team ^^ so awesome the hot blond guy who has a kickass attitude personality and this super genius brain, oh and he had the brawn too damn coooool :D And the movie was awesome, i likey like 746238423946 percent.

Tomorrow outing with jan and caris ^^ CANT WAIT :D

kayyys, byeeeee!

OH NO ARGENTINA *sniffs* how could this be?

Germany beat you 4:0. YOU COULD HAVE AT LEAST SCORED 1 D;

shucks, what happened to your teamwork ? It seemed so freaking screwed tonight.

Nevermind, looking on th bright side, u made it up to the quaterfinals , there's always next world cup ^^

GO ARGENTINAAAAA !

Back from church! Before church went with na to hougang mall to buys stuffs and ate that yummy delicious awesome cheese thingy from ljs! ^^ yummms .

Cell was wierd, with hitomi talking about bgrs and matt. It was freakingly awkward and even wj was quiet. WJ QUIET SIO A FIRST I TELL YOU. hahaha it was that bad D: LOL!

Dinner after cell, with super little people ^^ but i prefer it like that, i cant handle big groups. It was fun, but it could have been awesome-er if not for. But yeah. had fun ^^

so now im back. And im suddenly finding myself losing confidence. I've no idea where i stand anymore, i have this feeling im like, well, idk. hmms. I feel like ending things but. I know i'll cry for months. But if the blow ever come i know i'll cry for 7436547535 years. okay im exaggerating but i know i'll be even more hurt than ever. And i dont think i will be able to take the pain. Shit, okay chill celia everything's fine why are u thinking about such things now huh. shit, must be hitomi's talk. i'm starting to find myself damn hatable :/

kayyys, byeeeeee!

Today i was on the train and was smsing people, and i finally used the phrase "just wondering" again. Makes me think back to the days of musical, with nicknames of wonderwoman (bwahahaha) and fork and spoon kiddy. Even more ironic is that i met ZhiEn at Serangoon mrt. Now i really miss those days 0.0 some of the best days of my life dude.

Bwahahah, yesterday was Enhui's concert. I guess it didnt really appeal to me, cos it was mostly eastern music, and chinese dance. -.- im a more westernized person so...

bwahahah, just now i was walking downstairs my flat and everywhere was dead and SQAUSHED bees, so many yoou know it was damn sick ttm.

Bwahaha kayys, BYEEEEE!

Concert's over and im kinda feeling nostalgic. Abit like post-concert blues D: hahaha cos now theres nothing much to look forward in life anymore awwws.

well concert, i can say it was not bad, but could be better lah. But i enjoyed myself, so i guess thats th point of it XD before the concert was so nervous that i affected a few peeps and we started making this really stewpeed joke and we started laughing like siao. Bwahaha ms mok than came -.- come scold me only sio say what if i dont stop laughing she won't give me the super nice programme booklet...BLACKMAIL! shucks.

bwahaha today reported at sch at 9.20 am, meaning I SKIPPED TWO PERIODS OF CHINESE YAY! XDXD bwahahha, den pe,which was SLACKEROO cos height and weight :DD

The stupid machine, i swear, in injust! I took a deep breath to increase my height and guess what, IM ONLY A 157 CM. uncool dude, im sure im taller than that D: but at least yay i lost 2kg ^^ whoooot~ 42.3kg
After recess i started laughing like a madman cos the subjects were all uber cooool. Hist, Lit, Eng! ^^ i likey thurs now its so awesome ^^

I just went to cut my hair, and the woman cut wrongly D: damn sad. i swore i told her trim, but she's those chinese speaking ppl so. Maybe i should start polishing my chinese ... ;X

anyway im not used to it! ah soon i will so...

okayys, BYEEEE! ^^

Concert's tmr. and im feeling really excited, nervous and everything. AH THE ANTICIPATIONS KILLING ME!
so i thought today's rehearsal was quite fruiteful ^^ yayness. except for stewpeed-ness and all. but yeah.
bwaahahaha, today i got reminded of smth i will never have. and i felt awkward, im just not used to such things anymore. Like i havent even felt it in 74653876 years. But i felt it again. And im not used to it! it rendered me speechless. It made me think of all th things i dont have. and made me think of what i really want. And reminded me of all the hurt i felt and received. Its kinda ironic how the same place could be a place of bliss for some, but hell for others, like me.
nevermind, i'll grow up strong independent ^^ i think. God will guide me through ;)
kayys, wish me luck for tmr's concert ! Byeeeee!

Suddenly i feel like second-place.

And im thinking back to the past; i might have been happier eh? Now that i think about it. But circumstances brought me here, and i guess i should just embrace it, put my feelings aside.

Chill celia, jealousy is normal.human.feelings. Or is it? *gulps* i dont like this feeling its scary.

I mean, if you're really over it i guess it wont hurt anymore right? But if you say it still hurts...than.

I suddenly dont feel so confident anymore .

After school today, i feel that i just woke up from a really nice dream and that im back oin reality.

Everything that happened in hols feels like a dream, a really good awesome dream which im suddenly awoken from and faced with horrible reality : school.

well at least this fantasy ended off well :D Yesterday was such an awesome day and last night ARGENTINA VS MEXICO 3;1 olehhhh ^^ A for argentina A for awesomeness! XDXD

so today had school with sucky subjects... kinda.

but time passed fast ^^ which is kinda awesome. But i feeel back to norm again, like nothing special really happened when it did! DAMN suddenly what Hitomi told me starts to make a lot of sense. A lot a lot of sense. Woah its kinda scary. Kayys, BYEEE!

Omg today was so awesome we went to watch tooy story three and its like faggoty awesome i dont care im gonna go watch it again in 3DDDDDDDD whooots~

from 9.20am of today officially the awesomeness started :D and it lasted alll the way til now bwahahaha i had the awesomenest time and NOAH you still havent tell us who you likey! NOT COOL DUDE NOT COOL ^^

so went to second service, and i had fun there too ^^ bwahahahaha and went to eat yoshinoya. speaking of that, i still owe queky 4.50 SIAN TTM but sam and noah still owe me money so... and NOBODY PAID FOR THE TICTS YET WTHHHHH i neeeed the cash damnit awwwws.

alrighty, went to cathay, wanted to watch there but heck SOLD OUT and that was what i was trying to tell everyone yet they all ignored me. SEE THIS IS WHAT YOU GET FOR IGNORING THE AWESOME CELIA AWWWS. but anyway, cabbed all the way to kallang to watch and i feel in love with woody today he's just so awesome ^^anyway the movie was freaking good its like a freaking must watch. And i still wanna go watch ateam awwwws.

bwahahahaha okayys tmr school reopens and im dreading every single moment of it. Holidays have been like a dream come true, every single day almost like a fairytale and i dont want it to end. But the hols ended off great ^^ and tmr. BACK TO WORK CELIA D:

kayys, byeeeeee!

Today is a saturday and that means there was church and yes there was worship duty :D yay.

However worship's key was so freaking high i started the song in my freaking falsetto omg lah like im just so tired after that sian. Left church early to go watch na's concert! ^^ bwahahaha. Watching it left me so hyped up for this wed's concert! IM JUST SO FREAKING EXCITED NOW OMG I JUST CANT WAIT AHHHHHHHHH! lol.

Bwahahaha, saw the new term's timetable and omg lah. i mean its not bad or anything, but. IM GONNA START OFF THE WEEK WITH CHINESE MEANING WZ FACE MEANING HELL MEANING TORTURE MEANNING I JUST WANNA GO ZZZZ oh th horrors. what a way to start off the new term siannnnn 0.0

lol i pity those amath students though. They have maths every.single.day.omg.how.are.they.gonna.survive??? woah. anyway did anyone tell you im a sadist? SO IN YOUR FACES HAHAHAHA SEE I SO SMART GO TAKE LIT WHERE WE'RE GONNA WATCH SHAKESPHERE BWAHAHAH ^^ sadism ftw! :DD

kayyys, byeeees.

oh my freaking goodmits i just killed, no squashed a freaking moth, YES A MOTH, the one thing i fear and hate the most, using my brand news 8 days magazine and hell im freaking out like mad now. Hyperventilating.

dont judge me, everyone has his or her own fears! And moths just happen to be one of mine rawr. *shudders*

Magic

Photos from church camp ^^ More coming soon, creditted to Kenneth :D

Last night God spoke to me.

Now i'm filled with such a desire to be a living testimony for God. No matter what I'm going through, no matter what problems i'm facing, what pain or hurts i'm facing, I'll always be radiating this sense of true joy, contentment , peace, security that no man can give but only god. People will be able to sense this and wonder " how does she do it?" and god's name will be glorified, as i proudly proclaim " hallejulah ,amen praise the lord!"

For he has held my hand through everything, happy or sad, and he has never let it go. For i know im not alone, as he is always beside me pushing me, guiding me along. For i am comforted with the fact that even if man may fail me, god will never ever let me down. For god has given me everything i need, and he opened my eyes to see the beauty in them.

I love you lord, and i want to let others know you and experience this wonderful love you give,

Amen.

Hoody Gang.

Bwahahaha Hoodygang FTW ^^

Photos creditted to James :D