I was browsing through my old photos and i realise that i surprisingly, i really miss those things that i lost and i really want them back, but i know i cant. Its like, i never knew how precious how wodnerful, how awesome those things were until there're really gone. Now even though i might regret, one must always move on in life. Like somebody once told me, " There is a reason why some people/things just dont make it into your future."

Sometimes i wonder what happened to the old me. the old me that never judged. the old me that treated everybody with respect. the old me that had so much passion not to do the bad things cos i wanted to follow in christ's footsteps. the old humble me. the old me that never really bothered about what other people might have thought. even though everyone might say i have never ever changed, i know deeep down i have. more mature, more hardworking, more self concious, I want to go back to once upon a time. It felt so much more better than. now something just feels empty.

2323232323232323232323 dont ask me why im chanting it. As i said, brings back memories xxx.

fast day twenty four

Bwahahaha i never knew that 0.0 so coooool! well kinda, in a twisted way bwahahaha!

Hey peeeeeps ^^ TODAY WAS COLDDDD and it still is wooooo~ and that gave me a ultra esjfshfsj fabulous awesome reason to wear my hugeeeee adidas jacket while studying! Which means extra comfort without the stupid warmth yayyyy^^

Anyway, today mr gad came to teacch us for chem instead of ms rashida. No points for guessing how happy and glad i am bwahahaha! And i studied! Bwahahaha like what? Let me collect my thoughts here...it worked for me in Sa1 so i guess it SHOULD work now ehhhhh. Anyway. i actually did do that, buut i earased it all wakakaka! cos i suddenly felt too lazy to type so many typos 0.0

LOL sdbfhsfj today i came to sch late! Last night after studying i just dozed off zzz without even brushing my teeth offing my light SETTING MY ALARM! And thus i overslept and boooooooms. But detention was kinda fun ^^

TOMORROWS SATURDAY SATURDAY SATURDAY SAY YAYYYYY IM SOOO SO SO SO SO HAPPY WOOOOOO~

kayys, byeeeeee!

fast day twenty two

well i dont feel like blogging and i saw this on justinas blog and wj himself told me about it idk when, but its pretty cool never knew wj had this secret talent LOL!

You are like a balloon,

once i let you go,

i might never get you back.

So im gonna tie you to my heart,

so that i will never lose you.

-Weijie Birdman

Fast day twenty one

Hey peeeeeps ^^

So today i didnt go to school but hey! I'd rather go to school okay i had my piano exam today and hopefully i shall pass. Please lord! Help me pass :0

Anyway. Today i finally got my nerf guns bullets! i lost all of mine at cell bonding -.- i brought a fully loaded one to church and brought home an empty one so pathetic! but yeahhh i reloaded them today so. I'm happy ^^

Oh yeah bought the yummy-est marks and spencers cookies with that superbly awesome jam middle and cream fillings! HAHAH yeah the same ones denice brought to school for a period of time, the same ones na bought sam for his xmas pressie ^^ HAHAHAHAHA YES THOSE VERY SAME AWESOME ONES YEAHHH IM SO IN BLISS RIGHTY NOW WHOOOOOTS~

Okay went to orchard with denice and huili, shoppppped ^^ F21 collection now very nice so boho i likey ^^

hahahaha kayyys tmr there's school and choir and ct's next weeeek time to stress it all out baby.

byeeeeee!

BITCH

DAISYYYYYYYYY! you bitch im really bitchily bored now i bitching don't know what to bitchily bitch about and i need something to bitch but there's no bitch for me to bitch and BITCH! i feel like bitching my pillow you know what ? i bitching dont know what im bitching about what a bitch i am bitch. now even the bitchy word of bitch is starting to look bitchily wierd oh my bitchy bitch. i should bitchily stop bitching kayys bye bitches.

Fast day twenty

Okay i saw this on belle's blog and i just had to post i up! COLOURS ^^ and loveeeee - exactly what i'm feeling today. Wakakakaka!

Okay anyway, OMG HALFWAY THROUGH FASTING ALD i cant believe i survived so far. Thank god, amen man. Plus, i realise, the whole masterpiece has finally been painted finished and i think its over. really over. Thank god. now its just minor stuff that can be easily solved and. whooooots~ i'm happy ^^

Okay, let's start from ytd...?

Well, yesterday was fun! HAHAHA i didnt expect it to be but it turned out awesomely awesome hahahaha! First, worship. Awesome key ^^ okay but only for me D: which is damn sian. Not my fault that my range is low Low LOWWWWW! i cant help it -.- hahaha thought i screwed the solo cos i slipped up on one line...Like idk lyrics den the screen nvr show than i stun there omg whats going on. LOL lucky the damn pro dude James said it was like okay and it sounded good still phewwws :)

After that, bgr talk. And i realise. I do want to stay all the way. I'm ready to tackle anything, and i'll be here always. It wasnt as awkward as i thought it would be...cos i learn that im not really afraid to hide anything anymore woooo so. yay me? hahaha.

Cell bonding next! It was FUN FUN FUN FUN FUN. more than i expected it to be. We had a nerf war whoooots super crazy. and iphones/ipod touches make ppl anti social...we spent like almost the whole night playing taptap and talking. lalalala but i still enjoyed the bonding session we had...I LOVE CFC COMARDES FOR CHRIST YAY! oh and i slept at 8am -.- hahha!

Today, breakfasted at kfc yay and ppiano -.- but heyhey! I PASSED MY MOCK EXAM lord i pray tmr exam will go smoothly.

Haha kayyys, byeeeee!

Fast day eighteen.

Today was , a sucky day. Kinda.

Lets start from th top shall we. Racial harmony celebrations were so boring, not just boring, dead boring, i rather have lessons. YES LESSONS. omg right, cant believe im actually saying it omgomg. BWAHAHA. To top it off, there's freaking choir, CHOIR! And plus mr chen walked out wth like dshcsfygbsdh idk man. Like we already put in effort its not like we have all th time in the world or anything. Plus it sounded okay yesterday how would i know why we screwed up today. Its a...err...human thing! And you're not HUMAN your a stupid super eq low MONSTER, yes a monster. cant wait to graduate no moreeeee stress from you i never wanted to be student conductor in th first place okay.

Today i learnt im not allowed in kovan melody, MY OWN FREAKING HOUSE, on weekends. WTH. yeah, like wth.

At least haanging out with queky, na , and wj was pretty awesome ; i love them man they're way awesomeee.

But something just HAD TO GO AND SPOIL IT i received some jadgfsdhkfgsudh news today and i said stuff i should not have said to queky wakaka lucky he understand. Please god, dont make it come true please im begging you.

Went to kovan, prac piano, realise my first song is SCREWED. shit man. and theres, AURAL, which i dont understand a shit about. Im strugglling, ya know what. Im gonna go there and whack whack whack lorh siannnnnn D: hate this. Stress!

See, today's such a sucky day. Tmr theres worship, church and cell bonding. Hopefully it'll be a better day.

Okay on a side note. I'm loooking forward to tmr's bgr talk LOL i wanna see ppl's reaction HAHAHA sadist. and not really to cell bonding. so wierdddd! But yeah ^^ Plus, these days i've been dreaming of me getting my mother's illness 0.0 premonition?

HAHA kayys byeeeeeee!