You know something? I like you so so so much its like i never felt this way before; You can make me feeeeel so happy that i could just burst, or you could make me the saddest person ever. But you always apologise. Bwahahaha. Whenever you're happy, im happy whenever you're sad im sad and idk. Its all so so so strong. I really thank god for you, amen ! im looking forward to dinner ^^

Bwahahaha today was so boring i could have rotted like mad but that adds on to global warming and im nice so i tried my best to spur on ^^ and i did! yay me.

Went to yck for meeeeeeetup ^^ anyway, ClementL followed, saying smth since im his what, PCILTB he have to follow me and protect me later the blogshop owner was some mass murderer or smth wth lah. HAHAHA anyway somehow he brought along his toy knife , you know the japanese one they use in all those wierd anime and crap -.- yeahhh one hell of a retarded dude he is. Anyway so we went and i think we were arguing non stop again D: buahahahaa. I own him 10 times ald ^^ happppppy feeel so accomplished bwahahaha.

At least his presence had some use, Apparently the blogshop owner didnt have change and thank god for clement he was there yayyyy :DD

Tomorrow's theres choir. At 9am. OMG LAH there goes my precious sleeeep. and seriously, im having post-camp blues. But reduced drastically thanks to your smses ^^

hahaha kayys BYEEEEE!

Camp!

Okay im back more awake than ytd so i guess i can blog about camp now :D

Day one, was spent travelling to malaysia . Met QH at macs for breakfast before cabbing down to church which was just around th corner -.- SIAN we were damn paiseh to like tell the driver where we were going but than the driver was like damn nice, saying its okay. HAHAHA!

On the coach ride to the hotel we played indian poker ^^ and my ipod died so... D: Learnt that the hotel has THE ABSOLUTE BEST BEST BEST BEST BEST WONTONNOODLES IN THE WHOLE WORLD yummmy *slurps*

Time was spent playing random games like truth and dare and the works; Awesome ^^

Second day had to wake up dead early cos of worship duty and Matt overslept! Apparently Noah set the alarm at the wrong time -.- bwahahaha! Went to Berjaya Times Square in the afternoon. I hate that place, gives me seasickness i swear. And its boring ! In the end we played table soccer (so cool lah we go cheat supposed to use tokens we use singapore 50cent coins coincidental same size O.O) and ate at KremeyKreme which has THE BEST GLAZED DONUTS YUMMMS! Bought my transformers jenga and my nerf gun ^^ AWESOME :D and of course, played truth or dare again :) with *gulps* noah and joel gaying beside me with softoys and clothes and ewww lah. Traumatised T.T Played risk at night ^^

Third day, went to Mid valley. Which is a muchMuchMUCH nicer place than Times. Bought my cookiemonster bracelet ^^ anyway. Played some dumb wierd things game -.- JOEL ATE SHIT BEFORE SUPER EWWWWWWS! okay by accident, but still... Oh yeah, SAM AND NOAH TREATED ME TWO SCOOPS BASKIN ROBBINS ICECREAM ^^ THANKS GUYS :DD At night was holyspiritnight, which was awesome ! :DDDD Slept damn late also, went to slack around randomly. haahaha!

Last day, travelled back home . Broke record, 8hours chat with ClementL. OMG LAH how did we do it dont ask me man. And yes! He's gonna treat me FOUR SCOOPS OF BENS AND JERRYS YAYYY!

I really brought back something from this camp lah. Not only have i learnt to forgive, i now have a clearer view of my purpose :) which is awesome! so yeah. Today had worship and i over slept ! OH THE HORRORS D: but yeah i guess everyone understood lah so, phewwwws.

Kayys, BYEEEEE!

ARGENTINA VS SOUTH KOREA : 4-1 !

YAYYYYYS!

Argentina thrashed SouthKorea wakakakaa ! Like so awesome, Amen!

Okay anyway im back from hiatus and....BACK FROM CHURCH CAMP SAY YAY !

It was, pretty, awesome and magical and amazing wowwww. Like, really, WOW! Bonded with the lovely people ^^ Bought Nerf ^^ and transformers jenga ^^ which looks really really cool with black bricks and silver transformers design on them wowwww :DD

Even though the camp wasnt like, totally happy, like there were people who emoed here and there, i guess it was still pretty awesome lah. Bwahahahaha ! Made new friends, like some freak called Clement Loh whose face i wanna smack leftrightcenter RAWR !

Anyway, camp was really awesome and holyspirit night was scary D: but i think i brought home something reaally really valuble from the camp. OKAY IM SO HYPED UP ABOUT THE NEXT ONE NOW BWAHAHAHA !

yupppps. so yeah. I have SO MUCH to blog about but. now's late and i have worship tmr so....Some other day bah. ;D with pics hopefully.

Kayys, BYEEE!

Argentina ftw!

See this is what you do when you're truly bored. AND over excited for the next day. Yes, mess up profile pictures with picnik because of the crazy fifa world cup fever. Really, Argentina, you better win ^^ HAHAHA!

Tonight out of my utter random boredom i drew Glee on my nails using painty markers. I kinda like how they look though, shall draw them again tmr morning :D

Tomorrow's church camp, breakfast at 6 with qh. Im so so so excited. You were right. one day IS very.very.very.long. and its not because of you ! LOL !

kayyys, better sleep, gonna wake up at 4.30 tmr hais. BYEEEE!

This is what bored people do. Officially.

I should stop procrastinating now and start packing for church camp. Which is tomorrow !

cant wait ^^

Today i woke up to a sms from reuben. It read that he received a vison from god, to tell me that even though i feel a godly love for somebody, it isnt enough and what truly matters is the basic fact if that person is the person i want to spend my life with.

To be honest, i dont know.

Like really. I guess this will really set me thinking, but honestly. Everything i've been feeling these daysare so so so different than everything in the past.

Okay, I guess the question is, why me? why not anyone else, but me? Is it because i promised god that he's in control of all my relationships? i presume so. If that's the case, i'll ponder on it. But i really hope the answer at the end is a good one, cos i think im really sure of my feelings this time. well, emphasis on the i think part.

God, please show me an answer.

tired

Idk man after such an awesome day i suddenly feel so tired. Tired of pretending, tired of caring when when everyone else doesn't, tired of seeming so happy all the time, tired of being so expected of, tired of wondering, tired of being insecure, tired of.

Idk, its funny how one person can make you feel so wierded out. First that incident on sat, now today. I sometimes feel like im being used, sometimes feel that nobody cares, sometimes feel that im just this lil piece of trash to everybody.

I thought i was done feeling this way. I guess i thought wrong.

And only one thing can perk me up. An sms from you, yes you. But no it aint gonna come i know so.

shit whats wrong with me. this feeling of suffocation, i feel so clausthrophobic 0.0