fantasy

And i feel like im living in a fantasy, a fairy tale . Really, i feel that one fine day i will wake up from all of this and i learn that i was reurned with total rejection.

None of this seem real, i swear. and if i thought you were playing with my heart last time, trust me. Now its really worse. How do you expect me to forget about you this way? DAMN. what do i do from here ?

Okay so today had sectionals, den after that went to watch prince of persia.

LOL the male lead was hot, female lead was hot, the on screen chemistry was hot, damn ! super cool lah, like got this "IM REALLY HOT DUN TOUCH ME" aura from the screen. hahahaaha.

Today i realise Ashton Kuchter is so supremely hot omg. *screams and proceeds to faint*

okayyys, byeeeee !

I know im spamming my blog but its a screwed night after all.

I really wanna thank a few people for making my night seem so much more better. Thank you Matt korkor, without you i dont think i would have been able to control those freaking emotions, and the prayer u said for me really helped me calm down. Thank you Reuben, you really encouraged me alot and i really appreciate that. You managed to cheer me up and i really thank you for that. You made me laugh like crazy lah. Thank you JoshLim for advicing me, encouraging me and also making me laugh. Having a heart to heart talk with you really kept my spirits up, and make me realise how may awesome friends i have. Thank you wj, for your concern and encouragement :D And also to Denice, I LOVE YA YOU PANDA ^^ thanks for you concern and offering me a listening ear. :D really appreciate it.

Thanks guys, you guys really helped me survive the night. I really hope things will be better tmr.

I'm really REALLY lucky to have friends like all of you :DD

Let go

I'm sorry. I really am.

I dont know what i can do to like take everything i said back , to make evrything okay again, but. idk man.

I really really hope you can forgive me, i dont want th friendship to be ruined just because of this. But you would have to want to patch it back up again. *sighs* idk man. i feel so super screwed. wth was i doing. you're right, i assumed too much. I lashed out at you without thinking. I'm sorry.

Its okay though, if you don't want to, i understand. i was being a bitch.

Call me overemotional or smth but you know what. I cried. YES. i really did. thats how bad i feel. thats how much i wish i could make it all alright again. SHIT i think im gonna cry again.

I really feel so alone. I just, dont know anymore. But i guess i brought this all upon myself huh.

Anyway, i really hope you forgive me.

And I really need a sms from you now. It will surely make my day perfect.

No, i cannot, and must not be in want. Cos, the hurt aint worth it.

THERE IS NO FREAKING WAY HE WOULD SMS YOU CELIA GO GET A LIFE AND THINK OF SOMEBODY ELSE YOU ASS.

Today was fun also ^^

so last night sleptover at Na's house with belle, enhwee and vicky :DD funfun, except i was addicted to tumblr and i missed my ppg marathon T.T sian. lol.

Didnt stay up surprisingly, was damn shag from zonal bonding yesterday, so slept arnd 3am plusplus, which earned mockery from the guys who managed to stay up to 4am plusplus. So what? Sleep is essential; this prooves that we females are more humane than you guys. yeah,im sexist what have you got to say huh. LOL.

Went to second service, the speaker was from Africa and even though there was no powerpoint slides, I COULD UNDERSTAND AND STAY ATTENTIVE . surprise surprise. ^^ and the worship . whoooots~ supremely annointed, repertoire super awesome. my hand was like shaking non stop lah omg. and the transition into amazing grace (my chains are gone) was amazing.

After that went to eat lunch and played pool.

THIS TIME I ACTUALLY TRIED PLAYING. as expected, my aiming sucks ttm. but pool is addicting. watching also very addicting. shucks, i think i really wanna learn man.

coke with salt tastes really good, like sour plum. yummms.

Kayyyys, byeeee !

Zonal Bonding

And today was awesome.

Really really, got to bond with all my mateys and you were there. You made my morning awesome and you made my night awesome too. i dont know why i fell for you man, i just did. you dont know how much i was wishing that this morning would never end. shucks.

Went to pasir ris park for zonal bonding, now super super shag, ran around non-stop playing games and walking barefoot. I think im like super wild lah, i go places like park i have the need to go barefooted. Until Hitomi went to tell me "wow celia i think you can go for missions." LOL. i wanna go though. wakakaka.

Evening went to Belle's house for barbeque. Yummmy stuffs, the crab thingy Joe and Jeremy made (the j brigaders lol) it was super dee duper uber delicious lah. yummmms ttm.

Today i learnt that the girl you liked , liked you back. I mean, if you liked her, and it was on sided, i guess it wouldnt be that bad. If it was vice versa it wouldnt be that bad too. BUT it was both sided, something could have happened, but it didnt. I remember you, smsing her when you still liked her and wj was like "her ah." and you were . IDK MAN your face was so. happy? joyous? idk really. That scene kept replaying in my head over and over again. never mind, it was all in the past. and i. shall not think too much.

today i think i like you more than i liked you ytd.

Now im in Justina's house, stayover ^^

kayyyys BYEEEE

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Creditted to Kenneth ^^ Taken on Gdop :DD